jiyata na marata na jiya tana bhāta

English meaning

A virahiṇī says, “My prana lives in my body in such a way that I can call myself neither alive nor dead. At the sight of the thick dark clouds, my heart starts craving even more for Shyāmasundara, whose divine body-hue looks somewhat like the dark clouds. For the Beloved, even a kalpa is like a moment, that is why, He is enjoying Himself in Mathurā, but believing in the words He said at the time of parting, ‘I will come tomorrow’, I am passing every moment like a kalpa. The moon-faced maidens of Mathurā are greatly dear to Him, but here, the black-bees sitting on the lotus are giving me great pain by reminding me of black Shyāmasundara. Wherever I see the strewn pieces of peacock-feathers, I start writhing in pain, longing for the peacock-feathered Shyāmasundara.” In the words of Jagadguru Shrī Kripālu Jī, the gopī says, “Shyāmasundara does not even want to look at me, while, waiting for Him all night, I madly roam hither and thither.”

Complete whole-pad meaning transcribed from the supplied English edition. The source provides no separate line-by-line or word-by-word meaning.

Prem Ras Madira (English), Part 2 · PDF pages 291, 292 · printed pages 626, 627.

Meanings: Smt. Padmā Devī. English translation and transliteration: Sushrī Braj Parikarī Devī. Source details.